If you guys saw my insta stories today you know I’ve been struggling with something lately. My peace of mind. Starting this instagram is something I chose to do because I have a passion for showing other women that it’s okay to experience an entire spectrum of things as moms, women and simply put—human beings. But eventually that gets replaced with feelings of unworthiness and doubt when I share things that are important to my life and subsequently people unfollow me. It shouldn’t be that way, people can do whatever they want to do. I know I’m guilty of unfollowing people just because they did the same to me, but it’s the truth that being vulnerable in this space is something that doesn’t come easy for me. It’s actually pretty difficult. I struggle with the need to feel accepted by complete strangers while also remaining true to myself and my message. But it’s time to get over that. I created this space for others but most importantly for myself. You see, I don’t get a lot of support here in real life. I have family members that live 5 mins away that’ve never spent time with Paisley. I have friends that have known me since we were 9 that have never even met her. I can’t get my mom or my sister or anyone to watch her so I can even have an hour to myself. Even as I type this now I’m doing so with eyes in the back of my head as she wanders around looking for danger whilst screaming at the top of her lungs.
End of story? Mom life is f*cking hard and I come on here to maybe give or get a little support. I’m trying to keep everything afloat. I try and try and try till my eyes are bleeding every damn day and sometimes it gets the best of me. But I’m trying. You are trying. From now on I’ve decided I’m going to really focus on getting out of my head and just be as authentic as possible on this account in ways you’ve never seen without worrying or giving a damn what people think. So follow, unfollow, wash, rinse, repeat—my peace of mind won’t depend on those things anymore. Namaste motha-truckers.✌🏼
light + love, chloe.
p.s this picture was taken while Paisley was crying in the background and my husband was bitching about taking the picture. welcome to my life🤘🏼 #tiredasamother #beautiful #myhonestmotherhood #momsofig #honestlymothering #positivity #theaspiringmama #mamahoodfl34 #selflove #bodypositive #postpartumjourney #motherhoodrising #bodylove #momlife #newmom #curvesarebeautiful #motherhood #breastfeedwithoutfear #motherhoodlife #realmomlife #motherhoodsimplified #girlmom #reallife #bodypositivity #liveauthentic #yoga #exclusivelybreastfed #momblogger #stopcensoringmotherhood #motherhoodthroughinstagram