🎥The Art Of -
I have no idea how many times I have re-written this post as the more I dive into it in great depth the more I unearth a little bit more about me, this illness & self discovery. (learning accept who I am)
The more we speak the more we understand. Coming from such a high tempo job being in the army I have always confined myself deep within something that distracted me from life. Some would call it an obsession others would call it selfish. However it has become more apparent that in fact it’s a way of dealing with this illness, coming from such high tempo operations. Having the desire to focus is in fact my brain dealing with all this & it’s the way my brain is wired. That’s why everything I have done in terms of focus has enabled me to cope with this. The front part of the brain requires a level of stimulus. Focus is critical for this & me as when I am not focused deep with in something that is when my mind becomes, destructive, chaotic, manic & crazy! -
Focusing on what I have in the past and present has enabled me to in fact to automatically find a way of coping with the illness. Being passionate, disciplined, focused is what my brain requires to keep me distracted from what is going on. It provides my brain with an end result, goal or the correct pathways to success. When it all comes to an end my Mind is exposed back to chaos & hell!! -
This however has come at risk for me in the past... I have not yet learnt a way of controlling this, harnessing it without damaging myself, my body or others around me. It’s enabled me to excel so quickly in what I do and also self-destruct at a blink of an eye.
Choosing boxing has answered all them boxes... it’s harnessed aggression, constant skill development, a goal, push myself way beyond physical exhaustion, beat myself to ground to the rise back up again! Mental illness requires you to feel “safe” and for me I have found that inside that gym & them ropes.
It pushes all buttons and ticks them boxes. It’s requires the ultimate level of #mentalillness #stigma #brave #speak #mentalhealthawareness #fitness #mentalhealth #menssuicideprevention #mind #health #help #boxing